Spotlight

For all that it's worth

To live in the spotlight

What if life was simple as a hug?

What if my partner wasn't crippled from a drug?

What if my other homie never caught a slug?

What if our parents acutally gave a ****?

Another black suit, another black suit

Police happy to see another black shoot

His mother's make up smearing on my arms

Crying cause I'm the only son that she's got now that he's gone

What if the ghetto never heard an instrumental?

And we didn't have this rap ****t all we had was metal?

You telling me if we couldn't shooting a ball

Our lives still got shooting involved?

And what if I never left out of Denver that winter for new beginnings

My father started his business and traded family for riches?

You telling me that my auntie will still have a house to live in

And JoJo wouldn't be writing me from prison?

But **** it this is life

Deal with it or get dealt with

I'm in my room smoking alone like I'm selfish

Cause some days the sun's hard to face

Dad turns his son wears his face

But look closer see the heart of a lion

Sticks and stones couiln't damage my bones harder then iron

170 pounds with the walk of a giant

So defiant I pop a Valium, turn up the volume

Turn up the volume

Turn up the volume

Turn up the volume

For all that it's worth

To live in the spotlight

All of my demons come to life

And all that it was

And all that it could be

Is lost in the darkness of the night

Why should I die?

To live in the spotlight

Why should I kill myself for you?

You'd let me die?

To live in the spotlight

You'd let me die inside for you...

Look

What if money wasn't part of success?

Whould the people I used to be friends with never left?

What if making a name didn't come with regrets?

I think that fame's a pre-cursor to death:

Death of a friend****p

Death of a family

Death of a man

The misunderstood are always dead before 'they' understand

Starting at ceiling fans, chop up milligrams, draw a pentagram

Lucifer's not a rumor he's in the band, damn

Liquor and vomit on my Converse

Bright lights and packed concerts

And right next to the gun

that's on my dresser are plastic orange bottles of peer pressure

And I'm ready to cave, I live in a cage

How can I be a hero when I'm the one needing saved

48 days of this fast lane living

Me and my entourage no Jeremy Piven, listen

It's better to burn out then fade away is what Kurt said

I felt the same until I saw his daughter and thought as a father

What if tomorrow; the only I could spoil her was dying?

Started crying then popped a valium turned up the volume

Turn up the volume

Turn up the volume

Turn up the volume

For all that it's worth

To live in the spotlight

All of my demons come to life

And all that it was

And all thet it could be

Is lost in the darkness of the night

Why should I die?

To live in the spotlight

Why should I kill myself for you?

You'd let me die?

To live in the spotlight

You 'd let me die inside of you...

So what you do when the cop lights

Turn into a stage and a spotlight?

And everyone around you starts to hate cause you got right

And feel entitled like I'm supposed to stop living my life?

Well this ain't 2Pac

This ain't EM's show

This ain't Jigga man

This that Kells flow

This that C-town 19-double-X rep so

Welcome to my life here's a ticket to the next show spotlight

Welcome to my life here's a ticket to the next show