The Feel Good Song of the Year

I never thought the day

would come when I

Would be the poison

in the pen I use to write

You said you were alone

in somewhat of a nervous tone

I guess it was the blank look

on your face that was easy to replace

So then I went and drank myself

into an idiot all through the night

Recounting all my paranoid and

selfish thoughts but I was right

I made a space for you inside my soul

And let my feelings kill

the part that I control

So part of you was me,

neglectful maybe cold it seemed

Despite having the wounds

we both imbibe, the scars are

Somewhere we can't hide

I then stayed up for two more years

just thinking of the sacrifice you made

Indifferent to the reason

so apparent in the pain

I polished off another drink and

taught myself to numb and drift away

For one more night so

I could justify the day

So now I entertain the thought

of going on all alone

But you are all the life

I've ever known

I swear one day I'll get it back

something that is already dead and gone

Again i see the trumpet player

looking for his song

Don't worry I won't follow you,

that part of me is learning to let got

What was a space is like

a cancer in my soul