Anti Hero

I keep my blinders on tonight, won't know where we're goin', where we're goin'

The way her cold hands felt in mine reminds me I'm still broken, rips me open

She died before we made it to the hospital; I held my mother's body as she cried

And all my life she felt so tall and powerful, but now I was the rock which she relied

After all this time, what a fool I was to think we still had time, when he still had time

In all my life, what a fool I was to think we still had time, but we still have time, there's still time

I was just a child, her love was like the ocean, like the ocean

Dark and infinite, cold but ever flowin', still I'm frozen

Ignorance has always been a luxury, but you can't go back to blindness now with all you've seen

And who am I without a man to comfort me? I guess after all these years, perhaps we'll finally see

In all this time, what a fool I was to think we still had time, when he still had time

In all my life, what a fool I was to think we still had time, but there's still time

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I ain't the Anti-Hero of this story

I force a smile 'cause I'm that kind of sleaze

Just a ghost of a man who I wanted to be

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

Just let me lie, closed blinds though the morning

Upon a time, was a boy with a dream

Now I'm so ******' high, I think I'm starting to see

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I'm just a boy who had too much to drink

No, I won't die, I'm too scared, I'm too weak

Still I flirt with that darkness, closing in on me

So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me

I lost it all, there ain't nothing to see

I'm in a hell I made special for me

Now I'm so high, I think I'm starting to see

I think I’m starting to see

I think I’m starting to see, hm

I think I’m starting to see